I am taking a break today....from painting. I need to clear my head. Reboot. I get so lost in my paintings that it literally feels like time stands still. It is an odd place to be for hours on end. Pleasant, but sometimes it feels like you have no mooring...like you need to put your foot on the earth to remember that you exist in a physical sense. Like I said, weird. When I have more time for a painting, I often leave it alone for several days while I work on other things. Then I bring it out again and often, it is very clear what I need to do next. I can see what is missing or
what needs to be covered up.
I haven't had the luxury of that kind of reflection with the 12x12" paintings. The Buxtehude Project gives me a little more time to get away from it, but I do feel a time pressure with that project as well, because of the performance aspect of the commission. The concert is April 21st...but I will need to ship them about 2 weeks before that and will need to have them scanned at least a week or two before that. I am now hyperventilating. My husband says I am a peak performer. I do well under pressure. But, he obviously doesn't live inside my head where Edvard Munch's "The Scream" is playing. Somehow it all works out. It always does. I will trust in that!
Robyn Sand Anderson